Monthly Archives: august 2009

Short story


My sole

your sole

and endless game

I stop

you stop

and ask my name.

My hand

your hand

a slowly walk

I’m shy

you’re shy

and still we talk.

I frown

you frown

the thought remains

I leave,

you leave

the feeling stays.

De…dupa vara

eu_tu_si lunaAm descoperit ca am o relatie deosebita cu punctele de suspans. Mi-e foarte greu si atunci cand scriu mail-uri oficiale, formale, sa nu pun pe undeva 3 puncte care sa lase putin loc de interpretare.

Astazi meditand la acest semn de punctuatie am constatat ca mi-am umplut viata de puncte. Am pus de-atatea ori punct crezand ca va fi un capat, dar defapt au mai venit doua si …atat.

Asa a fost si vara asta. Am zis acum 2 luni: „nici o problema, cand o propozitie se termina poti incepe alta deci asta e sansa mea sa trec la urmatorul paragraf, eventual!”. Acum, dupa doua luni realizez ca am lasat loc de inca doua puncte si iar sunt in suspans…iar sunt inconjurata de semne de intrebare legate de ce vine  dupa astea 3 puncte…si IAR am lasat putin de la mine ca sa fie universul un loc mai linistit.

Dar de luni sunt somera (si credeti-ma m-am straduit intens ca sa pot fi! pe cuvant!), peste doua saptamani ar trebui sa fiu inscrisa la master, tot peste doua saptamani sunt domnisoara de onoare, peste aproximativ 3 saptamani voi sti daca sunt sau nu la master, peste 4 daca am cu ce-mi plati chiria :)), peste 5 saptamani sunt iar domnisoara de onoare, undeva in intervalul asta nu ar strica sa ma angajez din nou, ca sa nu ajung pe strada :).

have you ever?!

Ziceti fratilor cand mai dati cate-o leapsa si nu fac nimic in privinta asta. Asa…de la justDan de acum…5 luni =)) iaca si raspunsul la leapsa cu have you ever.

Regula spune ca din urmatoarea lista de 200 de lucruri trebuie sa le bolduiesc pe alea de le-am facut eu. Si ce-ti ziceam eu tie Dan ca la 99 erau multe…cu astea 200 nu mai intra nimeni pe blog. :))

Have you ever…

01) Bought everyone in the pub a drink
02) Swam with wild dolphins
03) Climbed a mountain.
04) Taken a Ferrari for a test drive
05) Been inside the Great Pyramid
06) Held a tarantula.
07) Taken a candlelight bath with someone.
08) Said ‘I love you’ and meant it
09) Hugged a tree.
10) Done a striptease
11) Bungee jumped – cred ca prima oara va fi si ultima ca pana jos mor de 3 ori.
12) Visited Paris
13) Watched a lightning storm at sea
14) Stayed up all night long, and watch the sun rise
15) Seen the Northern Lights
16) Gone to a huge sports game
17) Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa.
18) Grown and eaten your own vegetables
19) Touched an iceberg
20) Slept under the stars.
21) Changed a baby’s diaper.
22) Taken a trip in a hot air balloon
23) Watched a meteor shower
24) Gotten drunk on champagne
25) Given more than you can afford to charity
26) Looked up at the night sky through a telescope
27) Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment
28) Had a food fight
29) Bet on a winning horse
30) Taken a sick day when you’re not ill.
31) Asked out a stranger
32) Had a snowball fight
33) Photocopied your bottom on the office photocopier
34) Screamed as loudly as you possibly can
35) Held a lamb.

36) Enacted a favorite fantasy.
37) Taken a midnight skinny dip
38) Taken an ice cold bath greu de crezut dar dusurile alea din Vama erau al naibii de reci.
39) Had a meaningful conversation with a beggar
40) Seen a total eclipse
41) Ridden a roller coaster
42) Hit a home run
43) Fit three weeks miraculously into three days
44) Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking
45) Adopted an accent for an entire day
46) Visited the birthplace of your ancestors
47) Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment
48) Had two hard drives for your computer
49) Visited all 50 states of USA
50) Loved your job for all accounts -a durat vreo 30 de minute :))
51) Taken care of someone who was shit faced
52) Had enough money to be truly satisfied
53) Had amazing friends
54) Danced with a stranger in a foreign country !
55) Watched wild whales
56) Stolen a sign
57) Backpacked in Europe
58) Taken a road-trip
59) Rock climbing
60) Lied to foreign government’s official in that country to avoid notice
61) Midnight walk on the beach
62) Sky diving
63) Visited Ireland
64) Been heartbroken longer then you were actually in love
65) In a restaurant, sat at a stranger’s table and had a meal with them
66) Visited Japan
67) Benchpressed your own weight – ?!?! huh?
68) Milked a cow
69) Alphabetized your records – alea nu, dar mi-am asezat cartile din biblioteca de cateva ori si hainele pe culori…se pune?! 😛
70) Pretended to be a superhero
71) Sung karaoke
72) Lounged around in bed all day
73) Posed nude in front of strangers
74) Scuba diving
75) Got it on to “Let’s Get It On” by Marvin Gaye
76) Kissed in the rain
77) Played in the mud
78) Played in the rain

79) Gone to a drive-in theater
80) Done something you should regret, but don’t regret it – constant
81) Visited the Great Wall of China
82) Discovered that someone who’s not supposed to have known about your blog has discovered your blog
83) Dropped Windows in favor of something better
84) Started a business
85) Fallen in love and not had your heart broken – We simply fell out as well, no hurts…no wounds!
86) Toured ancient sites
87) taken martial arts class
88) Sword fought for the honor of a woman
89) Played D&D for more than 6 hours straight
90) Gotten engaged – da eram prea tanara sa realizez :)) si cand m-am prins era cam tarziu
91) Been in a movie – intr-un clip pentru o emisiune britanica?!? :))
92) Crashed a party
93) Loved someone you shouldn’t have
94) Kissed someone so passionately it made them dizzy
95) Gotten married
96) Had sex at the office
97) Gone without food for 5 days
98) Made cookies from scratch
99) Won first prize in a costume contest
100) Ridden a gondola in Venice
101) Gotten a tattoo
102) Found that the texture of some materials can turn you on
103) Gotten divorced
104) Been on television news programs as an “expert” – si Doamne ce-a iesit!
105) Got flowers for no reason
106) Masturbated in a public place
107) Got so drunk you don’t remember anything
108) Taken illegal drugs
109) Performed on stage
110) Been to Las Vegas
111) Recorded music
112) Eaten shark
113) Had a one-night stand
114) Gone to Thailand
115) Seen Siouxsie live
116) Bought a house
117) Been in a combat zone
118) Buried one/both of your parents
119) Shaved or waxed your pubic hair off
120) Been on a cruise ship
121) Spoken more than one language fluently
122) Gotten into a fight while attempting to defend someone – eram mica, acum tip la oameni sau incep sa vorbesc si la debitul meu verbal…majoritatea prefera bataia 🙂
123) Bounced a check
124) Performed in Rocky Horror
125) Read – and understood- your credit report
126) Raised children.
127) Recently bought and played with a favorite childhood toy.
128) Followed your favorite band/singer on tour
129) Created and named your own constellation of stars
130) Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country
131) Found out something significant that your ancestors did
132) Called or written your Congress person
133) Picked up and moved to another city to just start over
134) …more than once? – More than twice?
135) Walked the Golden Gate Bridge
136) Sang loudly in the car, and didn’t stop when you knew someone was looking
137) Had an abortion or your female partner did
138) Had plastic surgery
139) Survived an accident that you shouldn’t have survived
140) Wrote articles for a large publication
141) Lost over 100 pounds
142) Held someone while they were having a flashback
143) Piloted an airplane
144) Petted a stingray
145) Broken someone’s heart
146) Helped an animal give birth
147) Been fired or laid off a job – acum ma stradueisc sa fiu data afara ca sa iau somaj o luna-doua si nu vor :))
148) Won money on a T.V. game show
149) Broken a bone
150) Killed a human being
151) Gone on an African photo safari
152) Ridden a motorcycle
153) Driven any land vehicle at a speed of greater than 100 mph
154) Had a body part of yours below the neck pierced
155) Fired a rifle, shotgun, or pistol
156) Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild
157) Ridden a horse
158) Had major surgery
159) Had sex on a moving train
160) Had a snake as a pet
161) Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon
162) Slept through an entire flight: takeoff, flight, and landing
163) Slept for more than 30 hours
164) Visited lots of foreign countries
165) Visited all 7 continents
166) Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days
167) Eaten kangaroo meat
168) Fallen in love at an ancient Mayan burial ground
169) Been a sperm or egg donor
170) Eaten sushi
171) Had your picture in the newspaper
172) Had 2 (or more) healthy romantic relationships for over a year in your lifetime
173) Changed someone’s mind about something you care deeply about
174) Gotten someone fired for their actions
175) Gone back to school
176) Parasailed
177) Changed your name
178) Petted a cockroach  –nope, eu am dresat ratuste
179) Eaten fried green tomatoes.
180) Read The Iliad
181) Selected one “important” author who you missed in school, and read
182) Dined in a restaurant and stolen silverware, plates, cups because your apartment needed them
183) …and gotten 86′ed from the restaurant because you did it so many times, they figured out it was you
184) Taught yourself an art from scratch
185) Killed and prepared an animal for eating
186) Apologized to someone years after inflicting the hurt
187) Skipped all your school reunions
188) Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language
189) Been elected to public office
190) Written your own computer language
191) Thought to yourself that you’re living your dream
192) Had to put someone you love into hospice care
193) Built your own PC from parts
194) Sold your own artwork to someone who didn’t know you
195) Had a booth at a street fair
196) Dyed your hair
197) Been a DJ
198) Found out someone was going to dump you via LiveJournal
199) Written your own role playing game
200) Been arrested. ?

va recomand un tratament…pe linia lui 34

Sunt treaza! Sunt foarte treaza!!!

Dar acum aproximativ doua ore nu eram… asa cum nu sunt de obicei dimineata. Mie imi plac diminetile tarzii, invaluite in aburi de cafea, in care ma trezesc infasurata intr-un cearsaf  fin si moale, cand n-am nici o alarma care sa imi aminteasca inevitabilul program de lucru.

Asadar, cu restul diminetilor ma impac mai greu…si „limbeduzesc” pana ajung la cana mea de cafea care de obicei ma asteapta la birou.

De cele mai multe ori insa ma trezesc sub impactul momentelor de tip Caragiale sau… scoase din versurile celor de la Parazitii, care au loc in RATB. Desi am spus-o de multe ori, tin sa repet ca sunt una dintre persoanele idealiste care inca mai cred in umanitate si poate pentru ca vreau sa cred cu atata indarjire reusesc sa o gasesc acolo unde sunt si contexte antitetice.

In ultimele cateva zile uitasem ca traiesc pe Pamant, inconjurata de alti oameni, eu fiind si-asa suficient de aeriana :P. Tot in ultimele zile…ca in ultimii ani…ca de cand ma stiu defapt, oamenii blameaza oameni si la sfarsitul zilei constatam cu stupoare ca ne-am umplut unii pe altii atat de tare de … „bunavointa” incat nu ne ramane decat sa spunem ca traim intr-o tara de …”binevoitori” :D.

Uitati-va mai bine data viitoare atunci cand judecati pentru ca langa cel care tipa sta de multe ori cel care asculta si invata, langa cei care blameaza stau cei care respecta, langa cei care jignesc sunt cei care descurajeaza aceste comportamente…dar pentru ca noi vedem uscaturile uitam sa incurajam oamenii care fac sau pot face ceva bun.

Si va invit la un tratament pe linia lui 34: aici oamenii tipa, se imping, se jignesc, nu isi respecta drepturile si uneori nu se respecta nici pe ei insisi DAR in acelasi tramvai sunt oameni care cedeaza locuri, care respecta si ajuta batranii, oameni care inca mai cred in oameni si aleg sa-si spuna povestile de viata unor necunoscuti, oameni care descurajeaza stridenta sau lipsa de respect fata de altii si de sine, oameni care inca mai cred ca poate fi bine prin propriile lor forte…fara sa ceara nimic, fara sa spuna nimic.

Daca nu mai credeti in oameni, asadar, e doar pentru ca ati uitat cum se face acest lucru si ati uitat sa ii cautati. Dar e in regula pentru ca se trateaza si va recomand, in acest scop, cateva calatorii pe linia tramvaiului 34.

o speranta = 5500 euro

Am primit un link catre…o poveste de viata in nuante de gri:

Va rog ca in masura in care o puteti ajuta nu ezitati, pentru ca undeva in Univers si in viata lucrurile se vor echilibra. Si apoi, e ingrata positia in care ai nevoie disperata de bani pentru a FI, doar pentru a FI in regula, iar singura ta solutie sta in mana celorlalti.

imposibilul e doar o perspectiva

Paradoxul zilei e urmatorul:

– daca pentru a identifica ceva ca fiind imposibil (si o sa-i dam valoarea finala ZERO), ne raportam la notiunea de posibil (valoare UNU)

– iar diferenta dintre cele doua consta intr-o serie de posibilitati aparent lipsa (caz in care 1-1=0)

* nu se admite varianta in care 0 = o, care ar insemna ca nu exista nici o posibilitate de a avansa spre imposibil, intrucat existenta insasi reprezinta  o posibilitate.


Rezulta urmatoarele paradoxuri:

1) folosim ca unitate de masura a imposibilului, posibilul:

=> 0 (imposibilul) = 1 sau multipli de 1 altfel spus 0 = 1 sau 1+1+ 1+….+1

* (ceea ce matematic nu poate fi adevarat)

2) diferenta intre imposibil si posibil (in cazul ipotetic al unor posibilitati lipsa) consta in acea posibilitate/acele posibilitati care anuleaza posibilitatea/ posibilitatile deja existente – si in masura in care vorbim de posibilitati lipsa tot ce trebuie sa facem e sa le indentificam si sa le transformam in posibilitati existente;

3) perceptia generala a imposibilului, fiind bazata pe ce NU PUTEM face, ne aduce in pozitia in care nu admitem si optiunea unor posibilitati in surplus, care ne aduc in starea de imposibilitate:

pentru ca aparent 1+1+1 =/= 0

*=/= insemana” diferit de” sau „nu este egal cu”

fiind vorba de un imposibil cuantificat in posibilitati vorbim defapt despre urmatoare relatie

1+1+..n..+1 = 1+1+1+..n’..+1

– iar solutia pentru a realiza imposibilul consta intr-o perspectiva care sa anuleze ideea de imposibil adica ZERO, inlocuind-o cu o suma/ diferenta de posibilitati;

–  si calea spre imposibil sa fie pur si simplu bazata pe cati de 1 trebuie sa ai pentru a echivala necesarul de posibilitati din care e alcatuit aparentul imposibilul spre care tintesti.

Altfel spus, de la posibil la imposibil nu ne ramanem decat sa echivalam numarul de posibilitati existente cu cele necesare si n=n’.

Revedere de grupa mare

Desi fiecare intalnire cu oamenii din fosta mea grupa de la facultate ( 10 ) ma umple de complexe, mereu raman cu un gust placut ca viitorul e „pe maini bune”.

Daca eu cunosc 20-30 de oameni din grupa, repsectiv app 200 din  anul meu care sunt atat de capabili si de buni profesionisti sunt convinsa ca sunt mai multi si ca viitorul acestui domeniu, si nu numai, va arata foarte bine.

Pacat ca n-am facut poze, dar…o sa fie cu siguranta o data viitoare 🙂 !